My affair lasted six months. My therapist told me in the beginning that these things have a "natural arc" and tend to end in one way or another. I went into it anyway, gave into the irresistible pull of attraction, excitement, and yes, even love.
Being eight years into a relationship that was "stable" but certainly not feeding my soul in any way, I was amazed at how good I could feel. It was as if I was outside of myself, watching myself being the person I wanted to be. I was attentive and sharing. The little problems of life that used to get me down were suddenly in their place. I started to take care of myself both emotionally and physically. People around me noticed a "glow".
I used the affair to end my relationship. It was what I wanted anyway, and the right thing to do. However, my new love chose not to do the same, which was/is excruciatingly painful for me. So I chose to end it. I didn't want to lose this person that I had become again. The new me takes better care of myself than that. And I know now that I can be...
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